Monday, May 22, 2006

My Twin Bestfriend Is My Real Life Ghost


You are my bestfriend and my worst enemy
Having similarities together, promised holding hands forever
We're almost the same until your lie reflects my lie
Envy'd came completely made us in a rat race
People were watching making some noise
Their eyes depict that they would dump the loser
Competition comparison became the center of our relation life
It wasn't easy if we weren't totally different
Having been the same, forced to be more excellent than
One's crying, one might be celebrating by laughing in the back
Must be different, but had to be the number one of us
Being with you I'm glad while thinking a murder
I'm sick of your spurious acting
We could differ about deepest dark secrets and sins
Surely we two are backstabber
Full of sweet and soft friendship revenge
As long as we are finally dropping together again

World is cruel, our relationship's made it feel more than just cruel.
Drop 2 0

Thursday, May 18, 2006

My Max's Military Pants

Dark Angel season 2 - Max Guevara wore a pair of military pants when she was arrested in transgenic creatures maker's headquarter. Her pants color was black-grey-white.
Uncle Komang is a tailor in Bali. He made similar pants as Max's. Then I saw it was worn by Ratih. Of course, I want it!

I've already gotten my pants packet. My brother's colors is green-brown, just like military colors. Mine is similar as Ratih's and Max's, but I found the size was large for me.
Now, my military pants suits me. I'm ready to wear it to EF.
Love military things.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Jack's Smirking Revenge

"After Fighting, everything else in your life got the volume turned down."

[to Tyler, while looking at a Calvin Klein-esque ad on the bus] "Is that what a real man is supposed to look like?"

"And then, something happened. I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom."

[while brutally beating Angel Face] "I felt like putting a bullet between the eyes of every Panda that wouldn't screw to save its species. I wanted to open the dump valves on oil tankers and smother all the French beaches I'd never see. I wanted to breathe smoke."

"I am Jack's wasted life."

Friday, May 12, 2006

My Life and Lincoln's

Abraham Lincoln, 16th president of the United States, suffered from episodes of severe depression throughout his life. In 1841 he wrote: “I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on the earth. Whether I shall ever be better, I cannot tell.”

In 2006 I wrote: "I am now the most miserable girl living. My mood's swinging, my consciousness isn't be the same. I'm confused of my feeling. Human living twisted my mind."